the writing genes have been eluding me the past month. even now, writing feels difficult because there is SO much i want to write about, only i have no idea where to even start. i've been doing so much, learning so much, growing so much. but, i want to put it out there, so i'm going to break it up, piece-by-piece, and hopefully get up to current times.
as for tonight, i'm just going to make a little list of sorts. i have no idea what this list is going to look like, but i desperately need to write, so i'm just going to roll with it:
--one of the biggest reasons i've been absent from blogging is because i've been going through some sort of blogger identity crisis. first, because i want to change my blog layout and my blog name and i simply haven't had the time to dedicate to doing it. second, i have been in Blogger Comparison mode for the past couple months and i just haven't been able to shake it. i've been struggling with the idea of what i want to write about (my day-to-day life, thoughts, lyrics, quote, etc.) versus what people want to hear and having sort of a blog "theme," like so many other bloggers i know. but last night and tonight, i've gotten some amazing inspiration from fellow bloggers and that's made me realize that i just need to throw myself in headfirst. the biggest inspiration i got was from ree drummond over at the pioneer woman. i happened to click on one of her links, where she shared 10 important things she learned about blogging. and the very first item said, "be yourself." why this has been so hard for me, i have no idea. but that was part of the push i needed to keep going and to make this blog whatever i want it to be. readers or no readers.
--i have stopped counting down in months until ethan's return and am now counting down weeks. WEEKS. this. feels. amazing. the only downside is i've been feeling this immense pressure to accomplish all the things i've wanted to before he gets back. i've been trying not to stress myself out about it, but this has proved to be difficult. i'm working on it, though:)
--i started doing this Insanity workout, which is supposedly the hardest workout on DVD. and Insanity...is really the only word appropriate for it. but once you get started on it, it's also amazingly addicting. the first workout is just a 35 minute fitness test and that alone almost killed me. after i finished it, i laid in bed for 2 hours and tried not to throw up. the following night, i did the first workout. i had to stop 10 minutes before it was over (which is a lot in Insanity time) and i spent another couple hours laying in bed, trying not to throw up. but the third night? i made it through all the way. the fourth night? the same. the following couple days, i could barely make it up and down the stairs at my work, my body was so sore, but i felt AMAZING. like i had accomplished something i never thought possible.
i haven't been doing it consistently for the past two weeks because i've been out of town. but tonight, after i finish this blog, it's on, baby:) i can't wait.
--i haven't read a whole lot after i hit my head in my car accident in 2007. but in the past couple weeks, i've read one book and almost completed a second. which is A LOT for me. normally, it can take me a couple months to finish one book. the first book i read was The Happiness Project. i got so much out of it and i can't wait to share what i learned. the second book, that i'm close to finishing, is The Hunger Games. holy moly hunger games. i am losing sleep and actually taking my lunch break in the name of getting through this book. i'm not obsessed with it like so many people are, but i would be lying if i said it's not a page-turner.
however, i have to insert one little irritation: does the author have no sense of what grammar is? or any clue what commas are for or where they go? did no one proofread this before it was approved and went to press? if someone else felt the same while reading this book, please let me know. it's driving me absolutely bonkers!
anywho. after i'm finished with this book, i have Kelle Hampton's Bloom to start (can't wait) and Eat Pray Love is waiting patiently after that one. i'm exciting for reading, friends:) it's been a long time coming.
--i've been eating extremely healthy these days. seeing fresh ingredients in my fridge and on my plate makes me oh, so happy.
--the days are getting longer. summer is coming. this summer, i'm hoping for an actual vacation where i get to lay on the beach all day while i eat fruit, drink margaritas, read, and get a really solid tan. i have not had a legitimate vacation since the summer of 2008 and i am in desperate need of one. aside from that, i am making a list of things i want to do with ethan this summer, like: get special hawaiian shaved ice. visit san diego again. take a trip to catalina island. see live music. stuff like that. i'm so excited. i can hardly wait.
--my happy news for the day is: android now has instagram. i have been waiting for this day...well, since i've had an android. people's instagram pictures always make me happy and i'm ecstatic i get to start taking some of my own. it's the little things, people:)
and i think that's all for tonight. gosh, it feels good to write again. i'll be back soon, dear friends.
hope you're all having a fabulous wednesday evening.
xoxo.
p.s. this song has got to know my stereo very well in the last month. i can't get enough of it.
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