back in june and july, i mostly stopped writing. my life was crazed with preparing for the end of ethan's deployment and homecoming. my entire self became centered around being manically obsessed with cleaning and coloring my hair and trying to make time for the gym.
at that time, my dear friend, erika, asked me to write a guest blog post for her. i felt completely honored, but more than that, i felt completely inadequate. i so badly wanted to write, but i wasn't sure i had anything left to say. my whole being felt completely devoid of words.
but i figured that i'd tell her i'd do it, and then i'd have no choice but to write.
i brainstormed for days. i wondered what people would want me to write about. i wrote down possible topics in my journal and i lurked other people's blog pages.
still, nothing.
then, one morning, over a cup of coffee, in the middle of all the self-created chaos and stress, i realized that i needed to tell myself some things.
so, i sat down and wrote and the words stretched like paint across a fresh white canvas.
and that's what my guest post for erika turned into. a much-needed letter to myself.
i almost forgot i had written it, but now i'm sharing it with you. it's special to me because it made me realize that, as a writer, it's not important to write for anybody else, so long as you're writing for yourself.
so here is the link to my little letter--il dolce far niente:
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